Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers,
but to be fearless in facing them.
Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain,
but for the heart to conquer it.

- Rabindranath Tagore

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Wednesday, April 22, 2009


God is Good.

God is Sovereign.

I have said those two phrases from close to the beginning. He most certainly is both, completely.

I have no words for what it was to stand again, to take the first step and continue walking, to carry my crutches to the car, and be unable to stop smiling.

X walking
X riding a bicycle
riding a motorcycle

yes, thats right, i just jumped right on and took a friends bike for a ride around the student union at UNL! i think it's a good first step towards getting back on my bike (motorcycle that is).

Looking back over the last 7 months is more like trying to remember the last 7 years. So much has happened. In many ways, I'm not sure I would recognize the guy I was that morning. In so many though, I feel like I'm the same old Caleb.

its my birthday today. what a present!

Monday, April 20, 2009


Tuesday. I'm sorry, I was going to talk about Tuesday first but I'm listening to "In Christ Alone" (my hope is found). I don't know what else to say but you need to listen to it, and that means being quiet:

No guilt in life, no fear in death—
This is the pow'r of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
No pow'r of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home—
Here in the pow'r of Christ I'll stand.

Thats the last verse...........
this has brought me right to Tuesday without even realizing it. I haven't stood on my own strength and two feet since September 20th 2008. But no power of hell or scheme of man will keep me from being able to again. I haven't been promised that it will be Tuesday but i think it might be. It is fully within the hands of my God! I do want to go back to the lines: from life's first cry to final breath, Jesus commands my destiny.....this most assuredly includes every step taken to get me from who I was when I met Him to the tower that September Saturday. I hope that the truth of who He is settles into my own heart. I hope it settles so deep that as it is fire it consumes me to the uttermost and continues His redemption of this man.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I put a video on the bottom, watch it

i came across this today and was brought to tears, not tears of longing so much as tears of hope. to see with my eyes what can be is incredibly good. i cannot explain how this video drives me on, along with Psalm 27:13-14:

What, what would have become of me had I not believed that I would see the Lord's goodness in the land of the living! Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord.

tomorrow, or rather later today i guess, i am going to the prosthetist. my wound/burn doctor said last week that i could get fit and begin wearing the left leg to see if the open areas would continue to heal with it on. so i hope to get fit for my left leg and talk about upgrading to better ankles which means legs on which running and hiking and perhaps swimming, snowboarding and dancing can be learned again. we'll see. i'm stoked to get this process started, in some ways it seems like a long time, but in reality its been only a few months since i walked. God's grace is incredible. i wonder if it's possible to overuse that word...GRACE. maybe, maybe not.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Reading finally

So, I'm awake. I'm ready to go read. I like the sounds of that.

A deep breath: held, lost, and gasped for. Perhaps finally caught.

I just decided that more than anything else right now, even than the big summer plans I've been hatching, I want to read a book and finish the darn thing!

I picked up a copy of this and took it halfway to bed, then put it down and went back to the bookshelf because that sounded better. After repeating this too many times I opened the book I wanted to read before I set about crawling back to my bed. This one was Oswald Chambers biography. I almost didn't pick it up in the first place because I thought I was in the mood for something with more energy or entertainment value. I did pick it up. I opened it and realized that I had read it up to page 82. I thought I had a good chance of finishing it so I took it back and made it all the way. As I opened it in the warm light of my bedside lamp the rush of memory flooded in. Now I'm losing my composer and getting my keyboard wet. I was reading this very book the night before I went hiking that Semptember Saturday..................................I remember how hard I was trying to read a chapter a night no matter how late I got in from being as college as legit college gets or how early I had to get up to make coffee before I left. I remember vaguely making head-way in the book as well as in establishing again the simple practice of enjoying a good book while quieting my mind of the dreams of tomorrow (which really did pull a lot of weight and still do, much more than the worries of the day). It's interesting that I would find this tonight. I watched the picture Garden State for the first time tonight. It's a story of a young man who finally finds himself and strength to be himself with a thorough washing away of his old facade. I don't have a direct comparison at all, but the film made me think a lot about the things I like about myself and the things about me that not only honor God but bring Him joy. I couldn't sleep so I thought I'd try reading.

I don't know what else there is to be said other than the hour is late.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

I think I'll post on here from now often

Well, I think Caleb'sRoad is not anywhere near finished but I do think that I want to write on this blog instead.